Leave the attachment to the form!  Let go of what secures the insecure!  Dance, and then dance again in the free open clarity of Samantabadra.  There isnothing, no place, no tradition, that owns this realization.  You are the lineage holder and you are the one to radiate it from this moment onward.  Doubt has been vanquished, Fear of not being enough, having enough, knowing enough is burned up in the belly of disbelief.  Time opens the valve of freedom.  This is your time, your place, your truth has arisen.  There is nothing to accomplish beyond this liberation.  Hold fast to this timeless awareness!

Today I feel insecure and crest fallen!  My story is t’hat people aren’t flocking to here the teachings that that must mean I am not doing this well for Tara.  I seem to always be not enough for my agenda and my pictures of bringing Tara forth.’

How to stay here in this moment and not feed the loop of not enoughness.  Practice brings me into the depth of these feelings.  Experiences of being not well continue to plague my days and weeks.  I am suffering in this moment so how to liberate?

Bring your attention to ordinary presence and out of the projection of self and others.  Place your awareness inside you heart with compassion, gently allowing this mood to arise as it is with out any why or because or story involving attachment to a self.

You are not this experience and yet it is asking to be received, allowed graciously.  It is a misrepresented presentation that asks for attention.  That is all.  Nothing more.  Do not weave any story around it  There is no because to create.  Here beyond duality the luminescence shines purely and continuously!

And now you are one with Tara!

Choosing Balance

"How and where will next months rent come from?" I sit silent inside this question. This point, this moment, is all that I have. I am called back as I recognize this scenario this worry loop. 

Next months rent is a mind loop that appears when the thought of future and what the future holds arises.  I do sometimes have this fleeting anxiety arise, a fast beating panic experience right in the center of my chest. So this thought/question could lead to suffering if I were to play with it at all. The only answer that I can give the questioner is "I do not know", in fact I do not know anything beyond this point. I do not know what this afternoon is bringing. Each moment is so fresh and new.

This loopy thought habit, of next months rent, is like a phantom visiting me. Oh, it has visited me before in the past; but if hasn't much of a punch any more. I am remember the years of anxiety around paying mortgages, rents, earning enough money, spending too much money, and on and on.

I do not need to visit that realm any more though, I remind myself. This Moment is the house, the home I take refuge in. This is the refuge, just being here, now, with the experiences that are arising. There is no need to play with any future or story of rent; and it is even futile to do so. I call myself back to this point of fullness. I return my attention to awareness, in this moment, where every thing possible has been fulfilled for my body, my physical existence. Gratitude arises, as I drop into this palace of comfort and leisure to be here fully. A Moment of silence and spaciousness is here. Time to be inside the house of the moment!

Somewhere the rent got paid for this day. Somehow everything came together to build this home and some where the wood came into being from the trees for this furniture. Somewhere the fabrics arose in different parts of the world and put themselves together to clothe the wood frames and pillows. Somewhere chickens laid the eggs I ate for breakfast. Somehow the electricity got discovered for this moment and the water was found deep inside the earth for my shower. How could I become anxious when I see it is all a miracle dependent on so many actions and beings and plants and the beautiful Mother Earth herself, that I am even here today. I look in the mirror and see my mother's face looking back at me. How did all this come together for this moment to arise so magically.

I am in awe at the causes and conditions that have worked together to provide the splendor of this experience. The thought of this months rent is like a speck of dust now inside this view of abundance and care that has formed this moment in time and space. I bow down to the appearances of generosity and compassion that 

Give me this day my daily bread.......

"How and where will next months rent come from?" I sit silent inside this question. This point, this moment, is all that I have. I am called back as I recognize this scenario this worry loop. 

Next months rent is a mind loop that appears when the thought of future and what the future holds arises.  I do sometimes have this fleeting anxiety arise, a fast beating panic experience right in the center of my chest. So this thought/question could lead to suffering if I were to play with it at all. The only answer that I can give the questioner is "I do not know", in fact I do not know anything beyond this point. I do not know what this afternoon is bringing. Each moment is so fresh and new.

This loopy thought habit, of next months rent, is like a phantom visiting me. Oh, it has visited me before in the past; but if hasn't much of a punch any more. I am remember the years of anxiety around paying mortgages, rents, earning enough money, spending too much money, and on and on.

I do not need to visit that realm any more though, I remind myself. This Moment is the house, the home I take refuge in. This is the refuge, just being here, now, with the experiences that are arising. There is no need to play with any future or story of rent; and it is even futile to do so. I call myself back to this point of fullness. I return my attention to awareness, in this moment, where every thing possible has been fulfilled for my body, my physical existence. Gratitude arises, as I drop into this palace of comfort and leisure to be here fully. A Moment of silence and spaciousness is here. Time to be inside the house of the moment!

Somewhere the rent got paid for this day. Somehow everything came together to build this home and some where the wood came into being from the trees for this furniture. Somewhere the fabrics arose in different parts of the world and put themselves together to clothe the wood frames and pillows. Somewhere chickens laid the eggs I ate for breakfast. Somehow the electricity got discovered for this moment and the water was found deep inside the earth for my shower. How could I become anxious when I see it is all a miracle dependent on so many actions and beings and plants and the beautiful Mother Earth herself, that I am even here today. I look in the mirror and see my mother's face looking back at me. How did all this come together for this moment to arise so magically.

I am in awe at the causes and conditions that have worked together to provide the splendor of this experience. The thought of this months rent is like a speck of dust now inside this view of abundance and care that has formed this moment in time and space. I bow down to the appearances of generosity and compassion that 

Waking from the dream

So what ever we project onto situations with judgement is our karmic view.  We bring the past into the present, over and over again, with the same vibration of fear and judgement, and relive it until we don't.  That is waking up from the dream.  When we see that we are reacting to our mind and repeatedly creating the same feelings of fear, anger, sadness, jealousy....whatever; then we can begin to handle them with wisdom and compassion........  And as soon as the situation is seen through, with this view of wisdom, the story will unravel; and balance will be restored.

You could say this is the compassionate activity of an awakened mind towards ourselves and others.  Of course, every thing that is needed in the physical is attended to.  But the attendance is done with out all that story of blame and anger, the poisons of the mind.  The field is filled with peace instead of fretting and worrying and all the stories that we hook onto our experiences.

Karmic tendencies are  experiences overlaid with a view of separation, subject/object.  Once we started to see others as separate from ourselves, we started to blame them.  This is the disease of the dualistic mind.  Nothing can ever be accomplished until this is handled at the root.  Cutting the root is the wisdom activity that clarity accomplishes.  The human mind is habituated to seeing with this lens of duality; so it is quite a remarkable shift to see with a wisdom mind.  Some would call it Buddha consciousness others would call it Christ consciousness; but it can be my consciousness too.  This consciousness is our true mind.  We just have to remove these veils that have formed such a crust of judgement over our hearts.

The experience of the dogs and the seeing through the incident is now clearing.  There is a great peace here this morning.  There is no residual replaying of the drama.  Is it completely cleared?  That will only be known when I meet a similar experience again.  Every moment offers us something to clear though, something to bring the wisdom mind forward and through the habitual way of seeing.

This is the end of judgement, this way of seeing and the living inside of freedom.  I hope it is clear that life will continue to happen the same as before; but the seeing, the way of holding events and experiences, is liberated with wisdom and compassion.  The struggle ceases, the resistance to reality goes and we just keep feeling and being present as love in the midst of everything.

Fractured view

This morning there is a seeing of the fractured view that has been the familiar way of seeing for all my life. I can see now that this way of seeing 'me and you' as separate is a splitting of Truth. I see that the habit of this way of seeing has been a fractured labeling of the Oneness. The sense that there is this other person or plant or animal or structure of form that is not me and then projecting onto this disowned appearance what I do not or can not own from my state of beliefs of who I am, is the reaction that is inherent in this deluded way of seeing the world.

Now, I see how suffering is created! When I see my dog as needy and I hold the belief of separation, then I can blame her for not being satisfied with the circumstances of the moment. If however, I drop the separate seeing and simply allow my experience, with out any projection of other, than I will feel some sensation, something that is wanting to flow and the action will spontaneously evolve from within the perfection of oneness. This will halt the abuse of misidentification and controlling of otherness.

What I see initially is simply perfect until I place it outside of the moment arising and give it a label and a judgement "too needy or too noisy or old or etc". I don't even need to bring the projection back unless it is contracting somewhere. And yet if there is still a contraction in my experience, I can then realize that without the view of oneness, I am needing the other to be different; and that is being "too needy"!

With out seeing dog and self there will be no separation in the mind and then there will be acceptance of what is arising as one appearance flowering after another. This is the union of what has been split and separated and labeled and used to promote the egoic identity of specialness and dominance.

Yesterday's group revealed this amazing teaching or correction of view. It was so clear how we all fracture our reality into these pieces of otherness or not me ness; and then we habitually build our separate special identity that is not like the other and dance our dance of subject/object. I have read this and heard this over and over again in all the great teachings. I have contemplated the union of opposites and the collapse of the mind of duality. This seeing is such a jewel of awakening!

So in each moment, all appearances that are arising within my sphere are simply appearances. There is no otherness and yet they are not me ness either lest I use them to build a new state of egoic identity. They are beyond all labeling and judging and referencing. The appearances and the experiences of sensations that occur within this "me" sphere of experience are simply what is arising in this moment and then they will dissolve again and arise differently in the next moment or disappear completely. There is no longer any validity in seeing separation and using it to establish a Story about "ME" and 'YOU". The story cannot construct itself without this fragmented view and then of course suffering will cease.

Let this Truth be stabilized in all my moments with the awareness of Oneness today!